Since the beginning I was raised as a very religious person. I came from a family of catholics. Almost 100 percent of the filipinos are christians. My parents was shock when I tell them that I don't believe in god anymore. As a result for what I have done they are very angry at me to the point that they curse me that in their hearts I am already dead.. But as I see it, it doesn't matter because this is my realization when after a lot of troubles came into my life, I just can't believe in god.

Before I used to pray alot when things go wrong, for a time it is effective, but in the latter part of my life now, prayers and believing in god doesn't change any given situation. I didn't hate god cause I come to realize that things happen as a consequence of everone's decision in life not as their god want it to happen. The realities of life is we don't know where all this things come from.. from the world we live in, where the plants came from, the moon , stars. Most of the time christians believe that there is a person or supreme being that created all this, but as I see it again, just because we don't know where the hell all this things from doesn't mean that there is god.

The point is we made god as the reason of our being a rational. After all it is not GOd who made man, it is man who made god for the things that he cannot explain in this world. I believe that time will come that all this things has reason, if all the origins of all this things will be discovered I doubt very much if people who believe in god will turn away from their beliefs now. I just hope that someday all this things will be uncovered so that I will have the final say, that I am correct from the beginning.